Finding the right place.

Was it Twitter?

Was it Facebook?

Was it Foursquare?

Was it Instagram?

I had no clue where I could just write exactly what I was feeling without having to worry about what the fuck everyone else would think of.

I have reached a point of not knowing what to do.

Where do I stand?

Where do I go?

I dont wanna go.

Why would I want to?

When being here gives me nothing but a big smile plastered on my face.

But then reality sets in.

Im nothing but a sinner.

A failure.

A loser.

I know for a fact, in due time, one fine day,

you will know the contents of my heart and it only spells out one thing.

Time.

Note.

While I was clearing my old satria, I took out a few things I wanted to move to the new NEO.
Then, I saw the miniature jersey of Van Persie. I made sure I brought it with me and had it placed at the same place as it was on the old satria. Housemates here asked me why bro? Persie has left The Gunners, why do you still keep it? And my answer is, its not the exterior of the miniature jersey. Its the content it. That note which says, "I Love you Yang!!" in a heart shape is still there.

And as long as I can keep this, I will.
But hey, life goes on.

Will be off to the island tonight for a pre-end of module-party!

Balance in Life.

There always has to be a balance in life.
Something like a zwitterion which has a positive and negative charge which equals to a zero net charge.

Sad when you know it, Its over!

Its over.

Does distracting yourself work to forget?

1st day of Med School, everything seemed surreal!

EPIC I tell you.

New environment, New beginning and good housemates that clicked instantly on a bus ride back home. We were already making plans to Southern Thailand which is only an hours drive away and weekly clubbing sessions to the island.

I came here ensuring, I want to sustain what I "thought" I had left.

Doing everything that I could to ensure it happens.

And what I wanted happened coz even god knows how much Im trying.

Everything that I planned for is happening as it was supposed to be except for one.

In the day, everything is great.

Boot Camp, Army Style, swimming past midnight and also getting caught by the guards, gangnam'ing on stage, being elected group leader. everything feels so fucking good.

We even got to jump into the lake in the middle of a jungle in Kepala Batas, Penang.

It was as though I was back to living the life at Sunway!

But when I get on the bed at night, there are no more things to distract myself and I think and I think.

And I ask why?

Why is the only one thing I really want not happening?

Distractions never work permanently.

One tweet and I worry like a mad cow.

All it takes is one tweet.

How can I hope to go on without you?
How can I know where you'd have me go?
How can I bear not to dream about you?
Oh, how can I let you go?

I dont know. When I come home, as I unlock my phone, I see this cute baby pic of the gal I  truly love.

Ever since we had our last dinner together in permas, our Ikan Bakar. That lock screen image remains the same from that day till now. Mottu Ram.

Coz baby, I dont know how to let you go.

But all I want to do though its hard is to see you happy.

Uncertainties.

Was woken up today by mom's over excitement at roughly about 8.30am. Mind you this was only after 2 hours of sleep. You see, her excitement all correlates to getting the perfect job after retirement.

Mom's now a proud and happy Associate Finance Director at an upcoming and established hotel in the vicinity of Seri Alam. So anyone who wants or plan to book a room at the resorts hotel do let us know. As I was told, we get good rates.

Pamela Noreen Dickman also known as "The Iron Lady" of her previous workforce is my mom.
Truth be told she's my role-model. Mom has proven that nothing is impossible. Mom told me this sometime back, ever since she was young she dreamt to make it big. Why? It was coz she lived amongst hardship as my rich grand dad was a playa' and left my grandma whom was a housewife alone to care for her 8 kids. She wanted a better life for herself and the family. Right after SPM, she went to work and studied part-time. She slowly climbed up the corporate ladder. She worked to finance her education and to support the family. Today, she is at the pinnacle of her career. Why? Coz she's a woman with willpower and driving force like nobody else.
She fought and she persevered and she came out victorious.
 And today, I want to emulate her feat, maybe not exactly the same but somehow never to give up.

(No matter what it is, it always correlates back to the one. Picture was taken by Esha)

So this is how my day begun, being pulled out of the bed by mom to share the good news together. As I was down in the hall having my cuppa milo, not tea, Mom randomly said something I thought I would never ever live to hear.

"Boy, its time we change your car" (Yes, mom calls me boy, urgh!)

The moment she said this, I paused and asked what car? And mom replied, what car do you want?
The smile that was plastered on my face was something not to be missed.
I told her I have been desperately looking for one ever since college days, roaming the streets with Esha and my peers, hallucinating i'll own one sometime soon. She instantly said, well, we'll get you one.
I was thrilled and excited! Im finally getting a neo.

We got ready and left to town searching for the right NEO! Went to Johor Jaya, Tampoi, Bandar Baru Uda & Larkin Perdana. Saw certain cars I liked but we're only confirming THE ONE today. Maybe thats why I got up at 5am? Adrenaline rush gushing through my spine.

The sudden thought of selling a car came to my mind.

Of all the 3 cars my parents own including our previous Vios, I thought to myself which one holds the most sentimental value? Which one will I never allow my parents to sell?
It was a battle between mom's Corolla Altis and my Proton Satria. CRV is out of the picture since it just came in a few months back and the Vios has already been sold.

The Proton Satria, it has its memories attached to it. No one in my family knows I made a trip up to KL with Raj and Esha. It stopped halfway at KM140 at Pagoh coz it ran out of water. Lol. It stopped in the middle of the North-South Expressway. But, it did make its way up to KL with another two stops in Malacca and Seremban.

A shot also taken with her.

BUT

I came to a conclusion, Its the Corolla Altis. How would I be able to let go of the car which I saw her for the very first time. The car which I had my first conversation with her. The car which I saw how shy she was with me, having butterflies in her stomach. It was in this very car, everything begun. And thats all I have to me now. Sitting in that car, it brings back memories of the good days. The good ol' days. Reality may be my enemy right now, but memories will always linger on.

6.45am.
Cheers.

Never Ending Crush.

She's the one.

I know it coz when I try to distract myself for even a minute I fail miserably.

She's the one I want to say "I do" to on the alter.

Maneesha Gill Kaur, My Cocaine.

I dont know if you're reading this or not.

But Im up at 6.35am thinking of only one thing.

The first time I met you.

Opposite your school parked in front of the second hand car dealer. All groomed up with a bouquet of roses in hand and a teddy bear inside which says "I Love you". And when I saw you approaching the car,I never wanted that moment to end.

 

You barely even looked at me plus you had to go. Thought I was never going to hear from you again. But you texted me back. And from that moment. I knew in my guts that it was a 

Never Ending Crush !!!

Remember how we never wanted to end the calls on each other? We would take about ten minutes deciding who ends the call. And when Im not with you we'd think of 

Kiss Me Through The Phone

Oh yeah, Remember the stroke of midnight for 2011 Valentines?

Took pictures in the middle of the main road in teratak?

I cracked your cover lens? :) And you werent even mad at me.

Remember Avillion PD in 2009 for bro's 14th Bday?

Oh yeah, and remember when we first started going out at night and our chilling out spot was the park, on the slides?

Coffee trap with mom and family? Was too scared to even hold you coz i just met your family. Had to kick you underneath the table ;)

All this, is just one very small fraction of everything Ive shared and done with you.

I say this over and over again.
I love you Esha and I always will.

Beautiful monster.: The Perfect Gentleman - As Promised.

Beautiful monster.: The Perfect Gentleman - As Promised.: "“The perfect man is the man that every girl desires to have. He’s every girls dream, every girl’s fant..."

A blogpost by a special someone to me, Maneesha Gill Kaur d/o Dan Singh.

Am I not a lucky guy having her write this?

On the night of her 18th Birthday @ The Zone

In Preparation for finals.

What does most hardworking students do before every final examination?
STUDY!

Finals are exactly 12 days away with 5 subjects to prepare for and well,
I am feeling so damn laid back & relaxed.
I guess Im lovin' the adrenaline rush of cramping everything up till the last minute before the paper.
It gives you the best feeling ever, A feeling of accomplishment.
Gotta maintain my grades and it would be a perfect start to Life in Masterskill.

There are its perks and benefits studying in this institution of which I would say is like a thrilling roller coaster in a good way of course.

The view of our Medical Campus, Bandar Seri Alam

Besides the Politics which can be seen everywhere, the very close-minded mentality of most people around and envious hyena's waiting to attack,

The staffs are AWESOME!
From librarians, lab technicians and to other departments.
KUDOS! ;)

Oh yes, I was elected Vice-President of Masterskill University College's 1st ever Student Council.
Thanks to all those that got me elected into this position.
Asyraf Jamaludin, thanks a bunch for campaigning for me. Owe it to you too dude.
Wont let you guys down.
Away with the military style rule & Lets have some fun ya'll.
What is a student life with just a set of rules to adhere to right?

I believe, Study hard but PLAYY HARDERRRR.

This moulds us into becoming an all-rounder.

A key player that can strut and fret on any stage.

Almost slipped my mind, am looking forward to having a really good weeekend & Hari Raya holiday.

Anticipating the best of both worlds.

1. Spending the weekend with my beautiful love in KL at her mom's place!

KL + MOM = Awesome Night fun!!

Yeaahhh!! 

Lost in KL ;)
Which do we pick from?

Waikiki Bar in PJ!
Awesome scenic view

Sid's Pub!
Great food & drinks.

2. Will then be heading to Lotus Desaru Beach Resort on Monday to celebrate Hari Raya with the entire Dickman Family.

And this is sure to be wild coz we cousins consist of 24 including myself.

Yeaahhh babbyyyy!!

Entrance into Lotus Desaru Beach Resort.
What is so interesting about this place is the British Resort Concept ;)

Their very own Water Theme Park in the resort.

Showing 1 out of the 4 pools that are available ;)

Note : All this is gonna be right before the finals. Will be back on wednesday and from then henceforth, 4 days to stuff everything in ;)

Sounds fun!

Cheeers!

Psychology class.

So while everyone else are doing their research on their specific topics, here I am blogging once again.
Well, firstly coz our group are the first to be done with the research, "Loss and Death".

Today has been a relaxing & good day.
Stress free day. Yes!
Lecturers are tied up with their training courses thus we're given ample space and time to catch up with our assignments. Finally, a breather.

So here's a few pictures of different groups doing their research.

Our Awesome Librarian, Kak Siti.

Abg Akmal is missing though. He's an awesome person too.

Kesian our librarians, tonnes of books and cd's to be catalogued.

Group 3 researching on behavioural & emotional changes when one is hospitalized.

Everyone seems real serious except for Jamie Koh, only one smiling :D 

Well, its almost 3pm now. Gotta head back to class to get started on our psychology presentation with Madam Leong.

Cheers bloggers!!

P/S : Happy Birthday Karlson Dickman.

13/07/2011

Free time.

What do you do while waiting for your Microsoft Office 2011 to be updated so you could get your assignment done?
Facebook? Nah, Im getting bored of this social network.
Well Ive got this new hobby, blogging babyyy.
Always had the misconception that blogging was a thing girls usually do, Mann was I so damn wrong.
Glad I gave blogspot a chance, atleast im back to writing now, well not literally but at least close to it.
I guess the last time I actually wrote a decent piece of script was back in 2008.
So guys, this explains my rusty vocabulary aite.

Well lets deviate for a bit now.
Felt like talking about where I am now.
Ive been on the best roller coaster ride of my life.
After completing my pre-university studies in Sunway College JB, I was smacked in the middle of choosing between Medicine & Law. Both of which I loved equally and felt that it was highly impossible to choose between ONE.

I have been a debater and won a string of best speaker accolades back in Secondary School. Speaking, talking and anything to do with oral(wink) was my biggest passion. And thats why I wanted to do Law. The thoughts of meeting clients in bars and dressed in suits all day long also played a part in my desires to read Law. On the other hand, I have always dreamt of being a Medical Doctor, Dr. Adrian Singh. Sexay aint it? lol. The profession itself is an admirable and noble one. In September 2010, I decided that law was what I wanted & got myself enrolled into Brickfields Asia College for my 1st year UK Transfer Law studies. It was one of the best experiences of my life. JB boy in a big big Metropolitan City called Kayell. Everything felt so new. The people, the buzzling city and the much westernized culture. It was an awesome learning experience. Though it was only 7 months long, I enjoyed every moment. 3 for 10 and Happy hours after classes. EPIC! Then in March 2011, towards the ending of my 1st year undergraduate studies, I was offered a scholarship to pursue my MBBS studies in Masterskill University College. I was then torn in between. What do I do? It was an eye-opener for me. I weighed every aspect to decide what did I really want? Which pathway would make me a happy man in the future. I dont want to be regretting later on in life. It took me 3 solid weeks to decide. I finally chose Medicine and placed my law studies on hold, differed my papers. Now that Im back in the science field, I know that I have made the right choice. I actually missed being a Science student. Biology, Chemistry and Math was in my blood. I have always hated history. And hey, Medicine isnt easy too. Its tough but this is what i want so hell yeah, Im going to make sure I succeed and be who I want to be. Nothings gonna stop me. ;)
Remember, if there is a will, there is a way. Never give up. Smile and be happy.

Life in BAC,

New Life in Masterskill,

My Everything.

Today is the 12th of July 2011.

Been with this beautiful love for 28months now and still counting.

She means almost everything to me & il not let anything change that.

My love for you is So Big, trust me, its so damn big.

Thats all from this punjabi mixed dutch dude for my 1st blogpost.

Cheers ya'll.

Adrian Singh